Selfish

I guess the first step is acknowledgment right?

Well since I graduated last year I’ve had the mindset to think and worry about myself. No matter what, I wanted to focus solely on my admission to Physical Therapy school. I know how it sounds, but for once in my life, I didn’t want to worry about everyone else. 

Before I moved back, whenever I came to visit I always made dinner, cleaned, and did any additional work that needed to be done. You can imagine when I came back that it wasn’t like this at all actually. I felt like I had passed the torch to my sister and my little (not so little) brother to take care of the house duties while I focused on myself.

After graduation, I moved back in with my parents. It was crammed before and now it was worse because of the luggage I accumulated over the years at college.  With zero to little space, I was still grateful because there was a roof over my head. 

A year later, I anticipate news from Physical Therapy schools. I am beyond grateful that I have a support team that was so patient to work with me while I chase my dreams. Yes, I felt like I was selfish. Yes, I could’ve helped out more, but I feel like my parents understood. Sometimes we need to take a step back and say hey, it’s time for me to get myself together and that’s ok. Don’t punish yourself for wanting to be the best that you can be. If you are around love ones they will understand. My parents knew that I was working towards a greater purpose and I just needed this moment of support. Everything I do is for my family.

As you join the application cycle to stay focused no one knows you as you do. It’s ok to be a little selfish, but also be appreciative of those around you. Never be afraid to ask for help.